*Writing in after 2 months (7th Aug), Hard to write now and it’s also her B’day today and she is not here…. :(
“A little difference between Promises and Memories:
PROMISES: We Break them….. & MEMORIES: They Break us….”
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Today after PET paper we decided to go to GT to meet Sandeep/Ajay sir (co-owners) to discuss about what should we do, she was willing to know what are probable options (branches) for her, and I was looking forward for some guidance about next year preparation, course info, fees and all that general things. We decided first to go to Monica Galaxy to have some Ice Cream. We spend almost an hour there talking about results, things that we have to ask and a lot many other things.
From there we took walk to Palasia to take a tempo to GT. While we were crossing the road, I heard someone calling me from backside. I just stopped and turned back and found that Parivesh (one of my school friends) was calling me. She was walking a couple of steps ahead of me while crossing the road whereas I stopped to replied to talk to him. I just told her to stop, she got distracted and at the same moment a speeding minibus perhaps wanted to cross signal before it turns red came and
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and rammed her.
The impact was so strong that after vigorously shacking for a couple of seconds she died on the spot, I was so stunned that I stood still for a few minutes as I watched something unbelievable happening in front of my eyes. The last thing I remember from that place was that police and hospital staff were loading her body in the ambulance. Afterwards I don’t know how long I stood there dumbfounded and how I reached home, perhaps Parivesh dropped me at home.
I don’t know if it was result of shock or something else but from evening/night only I had fever, temperature didn't came down for next few days. Doctor was confused as blood testing reports were not able to clarify whether it was Typhoid or Malaria. They were showing partial symptoms for both. Finally after about a month of medication fever came down and now after recovering fully here I wrote about her last day…
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Goshhhhh.........
I don’t know if it really was love or not but I think perhaps it was, although we never confessed about our love to each other. But I think she too had feelings for me, else why would she missed her classes during those crucial times of career.
Neha, Missing you BADLY :(
I am really very very sorry for calling you that day…………. :(
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
2nd June 2003
Results are out… :(
Pretty bad ehhhh… So many wrong answers did the trick. I didn’t even scored the 75% of what I have had expected. Resulting not cleared the exam. My Rank was in 7000’s pretty bad..... yeah
Whereas Neha, She’z got rank in 3000’s. Way below her expectations… she is so depressed and even in bad mood. Now for next 2 days we are having MP PET lined up. Now we’ve decided to visit GT on Monday and talk to sir’s and discuss about what should our next step should be…. As I haven’t cleared the JEE and she doesn’t expect some good branch with this rank.
So
Do we try our luck another time, or do we go with MP PET or AIEEE result as both exams went on good and we are now expecting good result in them.....
Pretty bad ehhhh… So many wrong answers did the trick. I didn’t even scored the 75% of what I have had expected. Resulting not cleared the exam. My Rank was in 7000’s pretty bad..... yeah
Whereas Neha, She’z got rank in 3000’s. Way below her expectations… she is so depressed and even in bad mood. Now for next 2 days we are having MP PET lined up. Now we’ve decided to visit GT on Monday and talk to sir’s and discuss about what should our next step should be…. As I haven’t cleared the JEE and she doesn’t expect some good branch with this rank.
So
Do we try our luck another time, or do we go with MP PET or AIEEE result as both exams went on good and we are now expecting good result in them.....
20th April 2003
Finally the day came and passed leaving behind mixed feeling about the paper, not sure how result will be, as I feel that I am on the border. After paper now I have started feeling so bad that had I studied seriously for 12th board I could have done better as there were some direct questions from the book which are based on some straight forward formula.
This was my case whereas Neha, on phone she seemed quite confident about her attempts. Keys are not available yet on net, probably by tomorrow most of the coaching classes will publish keys on their site so the situation will become much clearer by then.
Let’s hope for the best.
This was my case whereas Neha, on phone she seemed quite confident about her attempts. Keys are not available yet on net, probably by tomorrow most of the coaching classes will publish keys on their site so the situation will become much clearer by then.
Let’s hope for the best.
19th April 2003
Finally the day is here. Besides me almost 2L people will be giving the exams tomorrow.
Friday, September 11, 2009
22nd Feb 2003
Things are going on well. In last 10 months after she had joined GT we had now almost stopped skipping classes for our so called dates, although generally on alternate Sundays we use to have ‘study’ date under the excuse of Weekly Tests. We actually started coming to GT and sit in study rooms and discuss millions of other things apart from studies. It’s not like that we never studied. We studied but for only about 10-20% of total time of our stay there. With exams less than a couple of months away a lot of people come to solve old papers under strict examination conditions and crosscheck to assess our performance. After giving test in such manner we normally discuss the paper to have better understanding.
As exams are coming nearer with more and more practice we started gaining confidence but then pressure is also mounting up. So let’s hope that like these tests our performance will also be good.
As exams are coming nearer with more and more practice we started gaining confidence but then pressure is also mounting up. So let’s hope that like these tests our performance will also be good.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
7th August 2002
Happy B’day Honey.
It’s Neha’s B’day today. Today I have decided to give her a surprise. Thanks to cell phones, I have had already wished her at midnight. When we met in the tempo I gave her b’day present, a set of 5 beautiful key chains. As I already knew that she loves key chains and had a good collection of key chains. After spending a good amount of time at different shops during last week I finally ended up buying 5 different key chains from 5 different shops. The most special one was the custom made key chain with ‘Neha’ engraved on the Heart Shaped wooden block.
I just told her that today only I want treat and we are going to skip first Boring Inorganic Chemistry class. So we reached at our usual dating place “Monica Galaxy”. As of our frequent visits even people working there now know us. As it was hot and sunny day, we decided to first sit for a few minutes and then we would go and take Ice Cream. As pre-planned with the manager, he sent a small heart shaped Ice-cream Cake on our seat with Neha written by crushed chocolate on it. As waiter comes from her back side, she didn’t even have had a clue until n unless the Cake comes to the table.
She was so surprised that for a few seconds she was gone dumbfounded, only her wet eyes were speaking with tears, she hugged me and then cut the cake. Afterward we sat there and talked for a couple of hours and when we stand to leave, she again started crying. Man… girls are so emotional. I comforted her it took another half hour. Now finally just before we left the Galaxy for the first time she suddenly gave me a peck on the cheek. It was mine time to be surprised. We just blushed and leave the parlor. Rather than going to class (of 3 we have already missed 2 lectures) we decided to go back to our homes.
Wow, What a wonderful day…
It’s Neha’s B’day today. Today I have decided to give her a surprise. Thanks to cell phones, I have had already wished her at midnight. When we met in the tempo I gave her b’day present, a set of 5 beautiful key chains. As I already knew that she loves key chains and had a good collection of key chains. After spending a good amount of time at different shops during last week I finally ended up buying 5 different key chains from 5 different shops. The most special one was the custom made key chain with ‘Neha’ engraved on the Heart Shaped wooden block.
I just told her that today only I want treat and we are going to skip first Boring Inorganic Chemistry class. So we reached at our usual dating place “Monica Galaxy”. As of our frequent visits even people working there now know us. As it was hot and sunny day, we decided to first sit for a few minutes and then we would go and take Ice Cream. As pre-planned with the manager, he sent a small heart shaped Ice-cream Cake on our seat with Neha written by crushed chocolate on it. As waiter comes from her back side, she didn’t even have had a clue until n unless the Cake comes to the table.
She was so surprised that for a few seconds she was gone dumbfounded, only her wet eyes were speaking with tears, she hugged me and then cut the cake. Afterward we sat there and talked for a couple of hours and when we stand to leave, she again started crying. Man… girls are so emotional. I comforted her it took another half hour. Now finally just before we left the Galaxy for the first time she suddenly gave me a peck on the cheek. It was mine time to be surprised. We just blushed and leave the parlor. Rather than going to class (of 3 we have already missed 2 lectures) we decided to go back to our homes.
Wow, What a wonderful day…
Friday, September 4, 2009
1st May 2002
Finally the day was here, with that kind of result I couldn’t be happy, and neither did I pretend so while meeting her. When she met me at NN she quickly identified that my mood was off. Just after some formal Hi… Hello… I asked her what the surprise was. She said, “Not now, let’s skip our first class and go to Monica Galaxy, afterall my treat is also due.” I was also not in mood to go to coaching so we hired an Auto to go to IceCream parlor .Strangely, on our way to Galaxy none of us spoke, it was a silent trip, quite unusual when we are together.
There at Monica Galaxy we took Ice Cream and sat to discuss everything that was going on in my mind since yesterday after I got my result. The result was a big surprise as I didn’t expect that bad performance.
Talking to her cheered up my mood and I had decided to not to quit coaching just for 12th class afterall my friends and family have huge expectations from me and this decision will let everyone down who is expecting something big from me.
We haven’t realized how 3 hours had passed in discussion about my result and decision only. After this discussion I was quite cheerful and in good mood. Then she just asked me that was I not interested in her surprise. I was shocked as I had completely forgotten that she had some surprise for me. I asked her what it is, and in order to know that surprise she persuaded me to buy another (3rd) round of Ice-cream for us.
She was in such a cheerful mood that even my sorrowful stories didn’t hamper her cheery mood. God Damn I love her… Her presence only can convert any dull environment to a cheerful one. Neways coming back to topic, she told me that she had left Rankers’ Point and then a pause. A shock for me… as this meant that we wouldn’t have any more common time to sit and talk. She stared at me for a few long seconds and then came a splash of laughter and I was even more surprised what had happened. What’s wrong with her? And then she completed the sentence that she had left Rankers’ Point for Gupta Tutorials. Her batch timings are same as mine because of school timings.
There at Monica Galaxy we took Ice Cream and sat to discuss everything that was going on in my mind since yesterday after I got my result. The result was a big surprise as I didn’t expect that bad performance.
Talking to her cheered up my mood and I had decided to not to quit coaching just for 12th class afterall my friends and family have huge expectations from me and this decision will let everyone down who is expecting something big from me.
We haven’t realized how 3 hours had passed in discussion about my result and decision only. After this discussion I was quite cheerful and in good mood. Then she just asked me that was I not interested in her surprise. I was shocked as I had completely forgotten that she had some surprise for me. I asked her what it is, and in order to know that surprise she persuaded me to buy another (3rd) round of Ice-cream for us.
She was in such a cheerful mood that even my sorrowful stories didn’t hamper her cheery mood. God Damn I love her… Her presence only can convert any dull environment to a cheerful one. Neways coming back to topic, she told me that she had left Rankers’ Point and then a pause. A shock for me… as this meant that we wouldn’t have any more common time to sit and talk. She stared at me for a few long seconds and then came a splash of laughter and I was even more surprised what had happened. What’s wrong with her? And then she completed the sentence that she had left Rankers’ Point for Gupta Tutorials. Her batch timings are same as mine because of school timings.
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