4th June 2003

*Writing in after 2 months (7th Aug), Hard to write now and it’s also her B’day today and she is not here…. :(
“A little difference between Promises and Memories:
PROMISES: We Break them….. & MEMORIES: They Break us….”
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Today after PET paper we decided to go to GT to meet Sandeep/Ajay sir (co-owners) to discuss about what should we do, she was willing to know what are probable options (branches) for her, and I was looking forward for some guidance about next year preparation, course info, fees and all that general things. We decided first to go to Monica Galaxy to have some Ice Cream. We spend almost an hour there talking about results, things that we have to ask and a lot many other things.
From there we took walk to Palasia to take a tempo to GT. While we were crossing the road, I heard someone calling me from backside. I just stopped and turned back and found that Parivesh (one of my school friends) was calling me. She was walking a couple of steps ahead of me while crossing the road whereas I stopped to replied to talk to him. I just told her to stop, she got distracted and at the same moment a speeding minibus perhaps wanted to cross signal before it turns red came and
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and rammed her.

The impact was so strong that after vigorously shacking for a couple of seconds she died on the spot, I was so stunned that I stood still for a few minutes as I watched something unbelievable happening in front of my eyes. The last thing I remember from that place was that police and hospital staff were loading her body in the ambulance. Afterwards I don’t know how long I stood there dumbfounded and how I reached home, perhaps Parivesh dropped me at home.
I don’t know if it was result of shock or something else but from evening/night only I had fever, temperature didn't came down for next few days. Doctor was confused as blood testing reports were not able to clarify whether it was Typhoid or Malaria. They were showing partial symptoms for both. Finally after about a month of medication fever came down and now after recovering fully here I wrote about her last day…

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Goshhhhh.........
I don’t know if it really was love or not but I think perhaps it was, although we never confessed about our love to each other. But I think she too had feelings for me, else why would she missed her classes during those crucial times of career.

Neha, Missing you BADLY :(
I am really very very sorry for calling you that day…………. :(